Our Journey

Andrew and I wanted to start a blog to document this wonderful and exciting time in our lives. Since we have fbnmily and friends spread out all over, this is the easiest way they can follow this journey with us.

A few months after we were married in 2008, we began planning to start a family. A year and a half of trying with no success we went to see a fertility doctor. Many tests were run on both us that all came up normal. Part of me almost wanted something to come up in the tests so we would know why we couldn't get pregnant. But, of course, we are happy that there was not anything majorly wrong. The next step was to start Clomid, a drug used to induce ovulation. We decided to also do an IUI with the first cycle of Clomid. To our surprise and excitement, we ended up pregnant that first cycle! It's funny after you wish for something to happen for so long, once it finally does, it almost doesn't seem real. We had an appointment with our fertility doctor at 7 weeks. Of course we were nervous, hoping everything would turn out good. Once she started the exam, I looked at the screen but couldn't really tell what I was actually looking at. So I was studying her face for any kind of sign that everything was okay. Her first words were, "Oh, this is what I expected" then in a different, more surprised tone "Oh, this is not what I expected at all." My heart just fell and I looked at Andrew for any reaction out of him but all he was doing was staring at the computer screen. I thought we weren't actually pregnant after all. Then she looked at me and said, "You are pregnant with triplets." From that moment, it was all a blur. I remember asking her if I could actually carry three babies because of my size. Andrew was rambling about that being a lot of babies. Our doctor told us about how rare it was to have triplets from using Clomid. In fact, in her 17 years of fertility treatment, she had only seen this happen one other time. Once I got myself together, I thought, okay we can do this. We wanted a baby, now we just get three!

We had not told any of our family that we were pregnant. I had this idea of how we were going to tell them, even before I knew we were pregnant. I bought these cute message cookie cutters that you can put different letters on, so the cookie will come out with any message you want. I was going to make the different cookies with "Grandma" "Grandpa" "Aunt" "Uncle" and send to our family announcing our big news. Of course I was very excited about this great idea I had. But after we found out there were three, we threw that idea out the window and called them immediately. Everybody's reaction was pretty much the same..."We are pregnant"  "Oh that is so wonderful, congratulations"  "Oh and by the way, it's triplets"  "What?!?! Are you serious?!?!"

For the next two weeks, Andrew and I were overwhelmed with the news we had found out. We were under contract for a new home and backed out at the last minute because it would not have worked with three babies. I also worried a lot. I know that I shouldn't have but all I could think about were all the risks the doctor told us about losing a baby or multiple babies along the way. It was hard for me to be truly excited because I was just so worried about something happening to one of them. I was 9 weeks along at our next doctor's appointment. At this appointment, we found out we had lost one of the babies. It was still there, which was hard, but it no longer had a heartbeat. We were upset by the news. We had accepted the fact that we were having three babies and now we had lost one. But a little bit of weight was also lifted from us because the risks go down with carrying two babies. We know this is God's will for us and feel blessed by it.

Now at 12 weeks, we are fortunate that the two babies are doing great. At our last appointmet earlier this week, they were both moving around like crazy! We are excited about the next 5-6 months planning for their arrival. I, of course, think I am showing a lot but most people say they can't tell. Here's a picture so you can see for yourself. (No face in this picture. I was having a tired, sick day....maybe next time).

This is what I see when I look down